Hurt

"I hurt myself today to se if i still feel i focus on the pain the only thing thats real"

its 05.37 at the morning and the clump in my belly is getting bigger, and i cant let it take over me now, if i start cry i dont know when i´ll be abel to stop.
I dont know why i dont listen to what people say, or learn from my misstakes.
Everything happens for a reason thats what desteny is but it feels im destend to live with regrets.
and all these what if.....

I have to find a way to get over it all, to learn to live with it and stop thinking why, what if, etc cuse that will drive me crazy. I´ve lost the chance,i´ve lost my loved.
This is it, somebody help me understand.

I hate her but hate myself more for even talking to her.

Love me
im the one you need
love me
im the one you want
love me
im yours just close your eyes
love me
love me,

if you can